WHATS WITH LIFE ?
whenever i got the motivation to get up and face the world , the problems will come in at the perfect time and destroy all the motivation .
UGH .

i wrote alot of motivation quotes around me .
in my room , in my diary .
but ,
nothing helps me .

i can't stand it anymore .
when can i smile like how i used too ?
when can i laugh like how i used too ?
when can i stop crying ?
everynight , i breakdown .
even while im walking outside , tears will roll down my cheeks .
UGH .

and ,
i don't call this as moodswings at all .

you may think im emo or something .
but ,
seriously ,
if ur in my position ,
you'll breakdown too .
won't you breadown when ur parents don't care bout you but , cares alot bout ur brother ?
won't you breakdown when ur parents curse at you ?
won't you breakdown when no one cares bout you ?
won't you breakdown when all your family members talk behind your back and all is negative stuff ?
won't you breakdown when you get curse for what you din't do ?
won't you breakdown when a rumours breakout and its like so untrue ?
won't you breakdown when you know that no one wants to listen to you ?
WON'T YOU BREAKDOWN ?
to be frank , there's more .

im trying so hard not to breakdown .
i seriously want to talk to someone .
i don't even mind if its a stranger .
at least , i can tell out all my problems that i kept inside me for so long .
i know i sound desperate and pathetic .
but ,
thats me .


tillhere~
`eccatardd?

even while im writing this , im crying .